White Noise

I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone

Thu, 13 Aug 2009 20:09:03 GMT

OMG I HAVEN'T BEEN IN THIS SPACE FOR AGESSSS

okay. updates:

1 granny hit her head on the door while trying to open it and has brain hemorrhage. cannot remember a lot of things and has short term memory now.

2 parents got physically attacked by a crazy fucker on the road and my mom ended up with a concussion

3 i crashed my car. not my fault though. fucker will pay for my damages which totaled up to 1.9k.

DID I MENTION 1- ALL HAPPENED IN A TIMESPAN OF 2 WEEKS?

oh one more thing, i'm leaving in a month's timeeeee.

"He's not sorry. If he cheated on you, then you didn't matter enough for him to be thinking about you while it was happening."--Taylor Swift

Break the ice

Mon, 06 Jul 2009 17:43:51 GMT

And so I've been enjoying my last few months here tremendously. I'll miss Singapore so much when I'm gone.

Picnic @ East Coast Park

We all helped to make salad!!!!!!!!! Here's us washing veggies..

Salad turned out fucking awesome!

Miracle Whip by Kraft is the best salad dressing ever. Try it.

Couple more photos from the picnic

Luvluvluvluvuvuvuvuvvvvvvv

Photos from zouk

Friday

Saturday

Okay that's all for photos.

I will miss all of you sooosososo much I'll die..... ): ): ): Don't any of you forget me, okay? ): ): )))_:

Tomorrow meeting Suss for shopping. We're gonna get more nails and buy some new underwear! My cool underwear are all worn I'm only left with granny undies :/ Susanta says there's a great place at West Mall to get cute panties we're going there tomorrow HEH HEH.

Going with Pam for her tattoo touchup next week, I think I'll get mine done too. Was supposed to get the outline of my cherry blossoms thicker, but I missed my appointment and have yet to make another one. heeheeh.

Oh and I LUVVVV MY NAILZ! See.

The picture doesn't do it justice.

Alright I'm going for supper with J now goodbyeee

Disgusted, Demented, Deraged

Fri, 12 Jun 2009 00:53:43 GMT

Extracted from Pam's blog:

Hate girls who exploit their boyfriends and treat them like chauffeurs. ("Hello baby.. Where are you? Oh. Bishan? I'm at homeeee(Jurong), i need t go over t A's place (Bukit Timah) for awhile? Fetch me?" Oh if i'm a boyfriend, I would tell that girl t fuck herself.)

Tue, 02 Jun 2009 17:44:29 GMT

Currently hooked onto KTV + beer. 3 nights in a row of that has caused a sore throat and flu though, suxx ballz

Anyway, dunno if you guys pay any attention to the quotes on TV Mobile, but some are rather insightful to me. This is one which I came across:

Whenever you plan on borrowing money from a friend, think which you need more.

Butter Cookies

Mon, 25 May 2009 16:31:12 GMT

When I'm happy.

"Don't fuck with me." has been the phrase on my mind the whole day

Sun, 24 May 2009 23:44:10 GMT

Disappointed and worried as I am, I can't do anything about it. It's all out of my control.

I'm dreading September, when I'll be leaving for London for school.. It's all happening so fast. Okay, maybe it's too early to say that since Sept's 2 months away, but still. I can totally imagine myself all nostalgic and lonely and sobbing over there. I will miss the food, shopping, clubbing, the mere familiarity of it all here in Singapore, and most importantly, my friends and family. Darling Kiko too. Overseas education is going to be the bane of my existence. I pray for strength..

Therefore right now, I'm going to make the fullest out of everything while I'm still here, having fun whenever deems possible. Nobody's gonna stop me from doing what I want. I'll be the most self-centered person you can ever find. I'll care only about my happiness and satisfaction for the last few weeks I have over here because I can.

Maybe it's cause of the whole going away thing, maybe it's the constant preying of my parents due to some dumb reasons, maybe it's that pesky fly that's been causing trouble for me, maybe it's just PMS (yeah, permanent menstrual symptoms), or maybe it's all of it; but I've been easily bothered lately, and it's been affecting my sleep, making me even more easily worked up, snapping randomly at innocent bystanders who played no part in aggravating me. I regret it if some of you have experienced the consequences of it all. To those who don't blame me, thanks very much for being such understanding pals. Mabel loves you all.

Alright then, this is the end of my sorry post, I've never felt so terrible in my life.

So long.

Maid Blues

Sat, 09 May 2009 22:18:55 GMT

My maid ran away.

Ever since, my dad has taken it in his stride, upholding his stature of "The Man of the House", to do the household chores. Don't ask me why it is my dad who's doing the chores and not my mom. Ever since I can remember, my mom does not get involved in anything to do with cleaning the house. She just sits back and utters stuff like, "I gave birth to yall, and suffered so much already." or "I am very tired, I do so many things for yall, simple things like this yall cannot do for me?" If you ask me, they're a truckload of rubbish. But whatever. Back to my dad. This whole "runaway maid" thing has resulted in him having no time at all to do his favourite after-dinner activity: online chess, making him a very-easily-pissed-off father. Grumbling whenever we leave the dishes on the table, or yelling "Oi! Now no maid you better be responsible!" when we forget to switch off the lights after using, my siblings and I are afraid to go against almost anything he says nowadays. Also, he has been demanding that we participate in the whole cleaning, wiping, washing, dusting, and vaccuuming affair. Just this evening, when I tried to leave the house to meet friends, he barked at me to help him with the folding of clothes, much to my dismay. I had no choice but to meekly do as I was told.

To those who are wondering why my maid did her disappearing act, she didn't exactly "run away". Two days ago in the afternoon, when I was the only one at home with her and was dozing in my room, she took the opportunity to leave the house. I woke up to the repeated ringing of the doorbell and went to open the door for my brother. I wondered why the hell my maid didn't get the door, and realised she was not at home. Kiko was around, which meant she wasn't out walking her. I told my dad about it, and he went ballistic and told me to find her. I went up and down the entire condominium looking for her, and even questioned the guards if they saw her around. But after about 3 hours, there was still no sign of her. I almost went nuts. Firstly, I was pissed off cause I got woken up, secondly the sun was scorching hot and thirdly, I was already late to meet Susanta. Finally my mom called me and told me the maid showed up at the maid embassy. Apparently she was sad because she missed her family. She also said she was always bored at home in the afternoon cause nobody is home in the afternoon all the time. -.- It wasn't that we mistreated her, so don't start letting your thoughts run too far.. Yup and so that was that, she flew home. And now we're maidless. And I'm fucking frustrated.

And you're not making things any better.

Heart.xx

Mon, 20 Apr 2009 10:29:53 GMT

I might just turn lesbian soon.

Grazed

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 15:33:07 GMT

Ok - My nose is still as blocked as ever, and my throat is so. damn. irritating. It tickles even when I'm asleep and I jerk awake to cough. I have horrible eye-bags as proof of my sleep deprivation. My head also spins more than normal whenever I get up from the chair/bed after sitting/lying for a bit. I've got low-blood pressure so I usually get that on normal days but it's frequency's increased since I fell ill. Damnit. And I haven't seen a doctor I'm too lazy hahaha. I've been getting quite a bit of yelling from dad and mom due to that oh well. I'll just let Panadol Extra / Cold prove their efficiency.

I miss school. Yes, the number one school-skipper wants to go school now.. NIAO! I miss school fooood. And my class / school mates. I miss waking up at 6am and singing the national anthem at 7.30. I miss sleeping in class. I miss getting yelled at by my mother tongue teacher. I miss messing around in class with the class girls. I miss listening to Pam and Jem bicker next to me in class. I miss annoying Pam. I miss annoying John. I miss annoying Tasha. I miss annoying EVERYONE. I MISS SA6 ): ): I miss the catchy tune of the school bell. I miss the discipline master and his tacky cardigans. I miss skipping lectures to sleep in the library. I miss gossiping with John. I miss the stupid things the dustbin girl, Yixuan, does like molesting people. I miss laughing and poking fun at people. I miss cat-fighting in the canteen with irritating bimbotic dancers. I miss sneaking out of school with Aveil and the rest to jome. I miss PE (!) Yes wtf. MOST OF ALL I MISS SCHOOL FOOD. Or did I mention that already. AHHH. Roasted chicken rice mushroom and cheese omelette yong tau foo mee rebus stingray laksa nasi bryani nasi lemak sambal chilli rengang samosa crispy chicken.. I have to visit AC again. It's a must. For the food.

All this talk of food is making my stomach growl. Dinner wasn't filling at all. Gonna hunt for food in the kitchen now.. Later!

x I want to adopt a cat.
xx I miss Kitcat.
xxx Meoww meowmeow.

Nightmares

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 05:53:12 GMT

Down with a headache, a fever, a cough and the flu.
Just popped 2 paracetamols and am going to bed now.
My health is deteriorating.. Fast.

Phuture last night was a mistake.

Salt Wash

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 11:35:07 GMT

Do you hear me talking to you

Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy, I hear you in my dreams
Hear your whisper across the sea
Keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Dying

Sun, 05 Apr 2009 16:32:32 GMT

I just coughed out blood.

I have never coughed blood in my life i'm damn scared

Shit I should have taken a picture of the bloodstained tissue.

Cheese Toast

Wed, 01 Apr 2009 16:49:19 GMT

I've been at this "Post and Entry" page for the last 20 mins. Everytime I start typing something I decide against it.

I figure I'm still stressed out.

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 01:11:55 GMT

" I’ve never believed that relationships work on total transparency and this is carved from empirical evidences, both narrated and lived experiences.

You see, white lies were created for a valid reason and sovereignty to use it – or abuse it – lies in all of us, of course more so for people who are in relationships, because you need to lie more often than the rest of us.

White lies work like a sort of space time continuum, where we use it to fill in an event that we do not need to convey. This is usually well intended, because the activity that is being covered up is trivial by some records and does not compose of any detrimental effects to the relationship.

White lies are only for preventing people from making a huge fuss out of nothing and this is something humans – I won’t even say women because I’ve seen how men can over-react – are vastly proficient at, much like crop-circles and aliens, retrenchments and recessions or planes crashing into buildings and terrorism.

Or if you really must know, if your white lie fell through and they get upset with your honesty, then what you can do, is to throw huge words like, “over-reacting” and “at least I’m being honest” or my personal favourite, “forget it, next time I won’t tell you anything”. These work great with the right tone of agitation, because if you execute it right, you can actually make them feel bad about it. "

-The Butterfly Tales

Breathe easy

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 19:38:18 GMT

Pictures from Europe during December last year under the cut. Super late i know. These are the few nice/pretty ones i found. Most of them are from Switzerland, cause the scenery there is just awe-fucking-some.

These chocolates are frigging awesome. mmmm

Mummmmy!

Cheese fondue

The alps super picturesque!

Cuckoo, cuckooo!

The three-legged chair.

The Eiffel Tower

The Louvre Museum

The paintings all damn weird I tell you. Like this nipple-biting snake.

Nice photobucket doesn't allow my nipple-biting snake picture so I have to upload it

Some quite scary.

THE MAKING OF THE DA-VINCI CODE.
Starring: Mabel Poh as Sophie Neveu, Luke Poh as Robert Langdon, Mark Poh as Jacques Sauniere.....

Ok kidding.

The greatest irony of love: Loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone right after that person walks out of your life.

And sometimes, you think you're already over a person, but when you see them smile at you, you'll suddenly realize that you're just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again.

For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. In my opinion, some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else.

Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love. Love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little.

As we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that's the reason why the heart is not always right.

Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love but to only discover that for them we are just for passing time, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger..

This is demoralising.

My Saving Grace

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 18:34:38 GMT

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo

Limit

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 19:35:53 GMT

Excuses, alibis. Alibis, excuses.

The world is full of them.

But most of the time, people come up with alibis to make themselves look better...

For me, it's a totally different thing.

I provide alibis for others.

I say to myself, "The reason he acted so rudely is definitely because he was tired/in a bad mood/in a difficult circumstance. He totally didn't mean it." Or, "He was late/couldn't show up today because his dad/boss/girlfriend was giving him problems he totally wasn't to blame."

Well, that's the last of it. I'M SICK AND TIRED OF GIVING MYSELF EXCUSES.

From today onwards, whatever shit people throw at me, I won't take it anymore. If you are nice to me, I'll be nice to you. If you fuck around and cause me to lose my respect for you, too bad for you.

To anyone who has anything against what I just said, 3 words.

GO FUCK YOURSELF.

Serpent

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 17:35:31 GMT

metheon says:

you know the astronauts thought they saw the great wall of china from the moon?

they were wrong

that was the great serpent of theon

Please tell me why I'm still talking to him.

Judgement Day's in a few hours time today, which is also Mum's birthday. My results will be the best present to her, ever.

Not.

Broke

Sat, 28 Feb 2009 20:37:25 GMT

Tuition fees have been flowing out of my pocket freely. Everytime payday arrives I'll be elated and cannot help but spend it all (and really quickly) on pampering my spoilt self: foooood (refer to last post), manicures, facials, beauty products like this Garnier roll-on thingy I got recently from the pharmacy for eyebags that emerged due to sleepless nights, clothes and more clothes, footwear (esp heels), accessories, and random stuff from Daiso. My next pay is going to another tattoo session heh! Gonna get it on my side, left this time, of pretty cherry blossoms. Yeay. I. Am. So. Excited.

I am gonna spend the rest of this post advertising for my dad's company, because he mentioned to me a few days back, after noticing my severe lack of finances, that I would receive commission if I introduce buyers to him (and I reeeaaally am desperate for cash). Daddy is in the car trading business, if you wanna buy/sell cars, he's the man to go to. He does parallel importing, and so prices are way cheaper than if you go to a distributor. Like for example a Merc or BMW bought from my dad is 10-20% cheaper than if you go to Cycle & Carriage or Performance Motors respectively. http://www.sgcarmart.com/new_cars/newcars_PIdealer.php?dcode=1038 that's the website.. I know this is a feeble attempt to promote but oh well there's nothing much I can do anyway :/ PLEASE SUPPORT OK, LIKE INTRODUCE TO FRIENDS AND FAMILY ETC. My dad has been in this trade for many many years and this company has been around for even more years so SG Vehicles Trading is a very reliable motoring company. The official website is currently being revamped, I'll post it up when it's done.

Joyride

Why am I so attracted to you

Shit

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 05:23:09 GMT

I've been having nightmares of Judgement Day. Apparently it is on the 9th of March, which is barely 2 weeks away and I CANNOT. FUCKING. STOP. THINKING. ABOUT. IT. I was sitting on the toilet bowl a few minutes ago, with the greatest urge to shit, and the numbers 090309 suddenly swept into my mind and I totally lost the feeling of shitting. Great, now the thought of my results even gives me constipation problems. Help.

Went to check out my health and fats % etc yesterday @ some place in Tan Quee Lan. My % body fats = 16.9. Visceral fats = rated 1. Means I have the least amount of fats I can possibly have in my abdominal area/brain. Which is probably why I have abs and am so smart. Not. Water % = 60.1 (I need to drink more, I barely drink the recommended intake of 2 litres of water a day. Water meaning PLAIN WATER, sweetened liquids don't count.) Metabolism rate = 1167. WTF RIGHT?! I eat so fucking much but I can't put on weight AT ALL so I was expecting my metabolism to be like rocket high. But it isn't. Apparently it's damn low like abnormally low. So the other 2 logical explanations for this absurd weight gaining problem is that 1. I have absorption problems or 2. I have worms living in my small intestine. Like fucking tape worms or something. Shit that have been residing in my poor intestines and absorbing all the nutrients from the endless amount of food I've been chowing down, leaving none for me to uptake and fucking put on weight. OMG I WANT TO GAIN WEIGHT SO BADLY!! It's unfair I tell you, I've been spending so much money on food but have stayed the same weight for ages. Like ranging between 46-48. I am depressed. Visiting the family doctor tonight.

But, eating is still my joy. (: Um nom nom.

(edit)

Just shaved her.

Doesn't she look adorable. I look like I'm strangling her but I'm NOT.
Meow.

LUS

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 22:01:50 GMT

PLS SUPPORT OK THANKS

lockedup_stars

Be My Valentine

Sun, 15 Feb 2009 20:59:47 GMT

This is a super belated post.

Valentine's day was awesome. <3

(: (: (:

I'm going to do my hair tomorrow. Remove extensions, trim, straighten. I hope I can pull my new look off /:

PMS

Mon, 09 Feb 2009 17:33:05 GMT

PMS.

Pre-Menstrual Symptoms
+ Present Menstrual Symptoms
+ Post-Menstrual Symptoms

=

Permanant Menstrual Symptoms

(in my case haha)

I cannot stand it when people have temper problems. I mean, why get so damn angry over some small thing. Anger makes you sprout white hair. Gives you a lined and grouchy face. It's good to forgive. But it's understandable not to forget. Because that thing that made you angry can serve as a lesson learnt and if you keep it in mind, you'll never make the same mistake/never allow the same thing to happen again/prevent you from getting angry over that same thing. Whatever it is, be angry but don't blow it. That's what I believe in. Which is why my new year's resolutions were to LOVE MY ENEMIES and to remove my Permanant Menstrual Symptoms problem. I am trying very hard to keep to both resolutions, no matter what anybody thinks!

Soooper bored @ home now. BTT TOMORROW, NERVOUS HAHAHAH. Aveil failed his!! It makes me uncomfortable cause apparently he studied properly for it. Everytime I think about my paper tomorrow my heart goes lub dub lub dub. Wish me luck.

All the eyes on me in the center of the ring
Just like a circus
When I crack that whip, everybody gon' trip
Just like a circus
Don't stand there watching me, follow me
Show me what you can do
Everybody let go, we can make a dancefloor
Just like a circus

(EDIT)

I PASSED MY BTT YAYYY (: (:
AVEIL YOU LOSER, EAT MY DUST
(Btw I heard he failed the second time yesterday hahahahah)

Dilemma

Tue, 03 Feb 2009 11:39:32 GMT

Mr Apple or Miss Berry?

Haven't been updating recently because I've been too occupied with social life. Love the way everything seems to fit together perfectly now.. Things were never so smooth during the damned 17 months.

Chinese New Year is a really fattening occasion. I've been stuffing myself non-stop with cny goodies and gained 3 pounds within 5 days. Good thing it doesn't show on my face.. Else I'd have killed myself by now. My tummy's growing though.. Have to go back to 200 crunches again every night if I don't want to look preggers whenever I wear something tight. I'm currently also addicted to sambal stingray from the crazy-hair auntie's stall in Newton FC hahaha I eat that almost every night! And mee goreng. I keep eating mee goreng. Mee goreng chicken mee goreng mutton mee goreng chicken. Esp from Al-ameen. God I'm getting hungry speaking of food.. FATS BEGONE!

Hee hee..

Wed, 21 Jan 2009 07:13:52 GMT

I love my friends. They are better than boyfriends. Boyfriends suck. Singlehood rocks. Meoww.

I'm so excited about tonight heh heh I don't know why. Go crazy only! And I feel much better now.

And I really don't wanna care anymore. I need all the help I can get from friends. (:

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time